2023!

      

Chaos reigned at the start of 2023; I didn't know where to start or what to do, and everything was unclear. My career and the agony of a broken heart were causing me great distress. I was living with Navya on New Year's Eve. We sipped a couple of vodkas on our balcony while watching the crackers pop in the night sky.

 We then wished a happy New Year to the paddy field that faced our balcony. 

I boarded a train to Taj Mahal in the evening because I was itching to move. The train arrived nearly three to four hours late, and the memory of that bitter cold is still with me.

After coming back from Taj Mahal, I brought a scooter and started my job here. I hated going to college; I really did, and I used to tell Navya that I would resign. Doing a job that doesn't give you any satisfaction is one of the worst things in life. By March, I had planned my trip to Kashmir and spent 7 days there. Within a month, things turned upside down, with me going through anxiety and depression. I called Chettan and told him that I was depressed over something, which doesn't have relevance anymore, but he took me home and looked after me for a whole month. Thambi was also there at home for one month on vacation. After almost one month of hibernation at Navyas, I went back to my hostel room. After coming back, it was hangama here, which finally took me to a psychiatry ward and later back to my home.

I got to meet a lot of good people during this period, among whom I am most thankful to my friend Jithin, who was there through the whole of those tough days, and I cannot thank you enough for helping me through that time. By the time I came back, Sabir was here. The next three to four months were uneventful, with some good days with me, Sabir Afreed, Rishika Navya Chettan, and Shunnu, with Unni always a call away. I made two new friends in between Athul and Gokul. All of these people I am grateful for for cheering me up and helping me get out of the many shitstorms I have been going through.

Surprisingly, almost at the end of the year, I got Vimal. Although it was a decision I made due to circumstances, I am incredibly grateful for the events that brought me to you. Even though the huge travel plans I made with Hari this year didn't turn out well, we managed to cover Jaiselmer somehow. I was both the happiest and the saddest this year. Even though I most likely damaged my parents the most this year, I am grateful to Amma for shielding me from choices that I otherwise would have made. nothing but grateful for 2023!!!