It’s been a year since our wedding and two years since we first met. These have been the fastest years of my life. I have no clue how time flew.
It was an arranged marriage, a long-distance marriage, something I never thought I would do. Yet life made me do it. I don’t know what to write; I feel devoid of words and overflowing with them at the same time. I am not even sure whether to write something or not.
I thought a lot about what to write. The one thing I know for sure is that this has been the most content I have felt in the last decade. The only sadness I carry is that I didn’t meet you earlier, and that the journey I had to go through to finally come to you was tougher than I ever imagined.
Actually, I believe a relationship should not be measured only by what happens inside it—like the trips people take, the way they behave with each other, the material things they share, or even what they say about each other. Instead, it should be measured by the changes an individual goes through during the relationship—the evolution of the people involved. In that sense, if I talk about this relationship, I can only talk about myself. How much I have changed is the clearest reflection of what this relationship means to me. Of course, this is subjective and may be very different from the changes that happened to you.
In the last two years, I have become more peaceful. Before you, there was this roaring sea inside me—of pain, anger, anxiety, and so many other bitter feelings that I can’t even fully explain why I had. That storm slowly subsided. Not suddenly, not overnight, but with time. Quietly, without my conscious effort or knowledge. I became peaceful. Content, I would say, as I’ve already mentioned.
The old me, who used to try so hard to fit into places I didn’t belong, can now say “No” much more easily. The people-pleaser in me no longer tries to please everyone. I am more of myself now—unapologetically. For years, I never liked the person I was. But finally, I feel like I am becoming someone I can eventually fall in love with. Not yet fully, but I am on the way.
I wouldn’t want to give the full credit to anyone else, but I know you have had a huge, huge role in this. My whole life, I thought it was impossible to be in a relationship without fights. But then you came along, and I don’t know how—it’s just that I don’t want to fight with you. I used to believe fights happen between people we love, but for us, it’s the opposite. The last thing I want to do is fight with you, and I’m so happy that it’s that way.
Vimal, I have spent more time far away from you than I have ever spent with you. I have seen you through the phone more often than I have seen you in person. We have welcomed each other at airports, but rarely in a home. Yet somehow, we have managed to meet once every two to three months. I have never truly felt you were far away; it is as if you are always just a hand’s distance away. I hope we get to meet more often this year and i hope we both become way better people with every passing year!❤️
8/9/25
